Friday, September 26, 2008
Younger me
Here goes…
When it happens you will believe that you were helpless to stop it. When it happens you will reason it and dissect it, discussing every phone call and every text. When it happens you will cry and be angry and scared and silently, almost perversely, satisfied. When you do it you will realise that it is wrong, but you will do it anyway. You will break his heart, you will realise that your heart was broken too and you will lose your best friend.
Nothing will be simple. You will kiss the boy with the blond hair and blue eyes and mysterious past. You will think about the boy at home, the one with the soft curls, the gentle eyes, and the vulnerable, desperate heart. You will ask friends and sisters and your mother what you should do. You’ll say that you love him and you never meant to hurt him and that you’re sure it is better this way. You will say this but never believe it.
When you realise that you’ve lost him - the boy with the soft, brown, curls- you will cry. But you will also grow.
The boy with the blond hair and blue eyes and mysterious past will become your new best friend. He will show you things and make you feel things that you will savour forever.
University will be full of things like this - heartbreaks, fights, tears, laughter- but you will discover and learn and get better with time. Nothing is simple; you will remember your young and innocent days but you will relish in the challenges and experiences your new world will reveal.
“It will teach you to love what you are afraid of after it takes away all that you learned to love, it will defeat you and then teach you how to get back up …” Jack Johnson.
Yours, with love.
Labels: letter to youth
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